Grudge is not good dear :)
Since I've watched 'Semanis Kurma' by Ustazah Bahiyah adn husband on tv, I learned that it is not good to keep the grudge against the person we hate no matter how bad they treated us. Rasulullah s.a.w has mentioned that in this world, a great muslim will always remember the good things ppl did to us and forget every mistakes ppl do you wrong.. I used to hate ALL of my ex because they are the only person who torned me into pieces. As I hardly get hurt by friends and family, these guys killed my heart so bad and it happens over and over again. Perhaps I believe in Love thggy and trust Love wholeheartedly, it harmed myself in the end of the day. Just so I realize that there is no use for me to hate these guys. I choose it to be that I. Im the one who fall, Im the one who trust, Im the one who love..
I shouldn't I be mad, overdrowning or curse someone else for fate that written in the book of my life. Things happened for a reason and everybody who came into our life by reason. Mybe god just want me to learn how to stand up for myself and be strong. Btw, Im glad that its all over and I am totally recover from the broken heart. Trust me its not that hard as long as you love yourself more than others. And these guys mean a lot to me, they taught me so many things they have no idea how they had change my life. Im a better person, with lot more experience. And now I declare myself a woman :p lol.
Mirul, I'll never forget you for my entire life because we can change the last person in our life but not the first. Imran, you're the coolest boyfriend ever! Eventho you taught me things I never want to learn, Im trying to implement your style in myself, ''Never get mad over small thing, always smile, Always". Basri, I called you bullshit, sori for that. haha. For today I've stop calling you bullshit. Im glad we are nothing ;) And shafiq, u're the sweetest-smooth talker ever. Ppl once told me 'Watch out with a smooth talker guy, they fall easily, and leave easily either'. I dun give a shit on those thng anymore cause we are over, but somehow you show me something I never seen before. Thank you.
Dont cry because its over, smile because it was once yours. :)